Colour My World UK

Light is so so important, inside and out.

With out the light we would not exist.

Yet every morning we expect the sun to slowly rise and light our way. 

At one of the darkest times in my life,  I was blessed or lucky to be able to go the the desert to heal. 

Sitting in the Sonoran Desert for a few years cracked me right open. 

Grateful for that today as I see the world so differently but I will never take light for granted again. 

Sometimes having to much or to little of something can give you a different perspective.

In the U.K. now I  miss the sun and the long, cold,  dark winters have me craving light.  As the days draw out it had me thinking and creating.

Color My World UK 

Created on my iPad using Graphics app – Autodeak such fun enjoy. 

Thanks for visiting,

Suzanne M Clements  

@suzie06az

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Removing the splinters

My father passed away on the winter solstice only a week ago.

My therapist explained it to me once while doing a session at EMDR for adult and childhood PTSD

“We’re just removing splinters Suzanne ”

I found this very very helpful. 

It’s kind of hard to explain…

I loved my parents very much.

 I lost my mom 16 years ago and my dad only a week ago, it’s been incredibly painful, but after working so hard to resolve my complicated passed, I no longer need to sit in silence.

 I’m at peace that I don’t have to pretend any more. 

I want to live an Authentic life and maybe help others in some small way.

I found this article which explain it much better than I ever could. 

I love my parents very much I tried to take the good and leave the bad behind but the strange feelings and grief are very difficult to deal with on a daily basis.

It not ok!  

“For adult survivors, the losses that accompany child maltreatment are cloaked in silence, lost in the shrouds of history, and largely unrecognized,” Bloom states. “But these ‘little deaths’ linger as unremoved splinters in the survivor’s psyche for decades.” (Dr. Bloom)

Great blog link below 

The Invisible scares
Dad, thanks for teaching me how to survive & how to forgive ….

My visit with Russ June 3 2016  New York


Dad what do I do when you die? 

In his Zen Tradition he told me to 

He said “Clear your mind ” 

“think of nothing ”

Thanks for visiting Suzanne 

After the storm by Suzanne M. Clements 1985 acrylics